Self-Dissolve : Reiteration is part of an ongoing project that exists at the intersections of the self, self-image and the poetics of absence. I performed my first iteration of this work in early 2018 where I publicly rejected patriarchal renderings of personhood in favour of embodying the emotive self through sandpapering 100 self-portrait photographs during a 2-hour live performance.
For Self-Dissolve : Reiteration I shifted my focus to my lived experience of having a non-normative gender identity in Hobart. Through live performance, photography, video and remnants I communicate the pain and frustration caused by colonial and patriarchal forces upon my identity, self-image and gender with particular focus on how these forces cause discomfort and disjuncture.
I wrestled large-scale self-portrait photographs and sandstone blocks for 2-hours during the opening night until the image on each print was destroyed. The remnants and video documentation of the performance remained in the space until the exhibition concluded.
This performance was an act of vulnerability where I self-inflicted agitation in order to transcend trauma and reclaim agency over myself and my gender identity.
Images 1-8 by Alexandra Hullah